sleeping jie

jia ying and ryan still enjoying playing restaurant city,
i upload my blog again,
SLEEPING JIE
I think i need to explan this
and telling everyone
what is the history of this beautiful name
last time at sch i only remember ppl like to call me
(XIAN YU MEI)
is because my sister name is SZE XIAN
in chinise is call zi xian
and normaly chinise ppl are very lazy
they only call the last name of the person
ex
if your name is
han jie yu
they will call you AH YU
SOOOOOO
for sure my sister name is ah xian
bt lat time in sch i dun know why her friends are so kindly and friendlyy
alway likes to add something behind the name,
make it more prefect i guess.....
so they all add 1 word behind my sister name...
YU
in chinise mean fish
xian yu = KIAN HEE = SALTED FISH
and because i'm her lovely sister
for sure they all will add some salt for me too
mei
xian yu mei = sister of salted fish
THE MOST FUNNY NICKNAME FORM THE WORLD (FOR ME)
because last time i fat like pig..so my family all call me ah pang
and for sure still hv alot of nickname
BUTTTTTTT
SLEEPYING JIE??
that is that?????
is my new nick name giving by my GENG
KHY LI
EDWIN
JIA YING
PACTRICK
RYAN
WEE LEE
WONG JI ZHEN
why that give me this name ,because they all say i can slp anytime and anyway...
WHERE GOT O??
I NEVER SLP AT CLASS DE OK???except MALAYSIAN STUDY AND FRENCH CLASS is......sleeping time la...soo....that 1 cant include
bt is true what??
ppl hv learn from me ok,
dun waste any single time for sleep,
if gt time to rest for sure slp la,
dun waste time ma,
MONEY = TIME OK??
sooo
give me other nickname..
maybe can call leng lui jie..
i dun mind de..

new post......

long time no upload my blog lo....
just finish exam,the stupid marketing...
hehe...
actualy is very easy to get full mark ,
just cz i stupid LO dun know how to do only ,
what to do,
before exam,
i dun know is who...
bt got SOMEONE Someone say is open book exam de lo,
bt in the end is what?????..........wtf......
i dun want belanja u all guy eat hor???
see my older post or nt????
no moneyyyyyyy la.....
next week exam...
hv to study study and study..
and doing asignment asignment and asignment...
wat the life is that ??????????
bt i like it.....
hahahahha
now at college (student louge),
waiting for ryan and jiaying playing restaurant citystuipid game
hehe....
bt i want bacon,pasta,leek,salad,dragon fruit,kiwi and egg for my restaurant city la
who want donet
later reach home only upload my blog again....
really long time no upload my blog...
sori la,
cz this few month abit busy and lazy to upload blog....
haha.......
i'm lazy gal....
i know.....
and
stop calling me SLEEPING JIE

MONEY

money is very important...
i want
i need
alot
alot
and
alot alot of $$$$$$
I WANT buy alot alot things..
i need MONEY...
BUT...
how to earn so much money????
no working...
where gt income??
bt i need money...

尝试

我真的尝试过忘记的，相信我。。
但是回忆真的很难在我脑袋删除。。
脑袋每天都会浮现我看到的画面。。
我开始讨厌起身了，如果可以我想一直睡下去。。
什么都不做都不想。。我要换脑袋。。


最近很想回家，开始想家人了。。。
大哥大姐我开始可以明白你们在国外想家但不能回的心情。。。
第一次那么久没回家好痛苦啊。。。。
我好想你们
＇我爱你们＇


我警告你少来烦我，我讨厌你。。。
我不可能喜欢你啦，
你想太多了，要我解释多少次？？
我还要吃猪肉拉


还有那个不认识的少在打来烦死了，
都跟你说不认识了。。
华语听不明白吗？？
我要去学印度话了啦

wat the fuck

WAHT THE FUCK.....

I HATE my training place.....


i HATE the superviser at lounge

WHO URE????

YOU just a small superviser.......

if YOU WANT SCOLD ME,JUST SCOLD LA.....

NOT NEED TELL MY FRIEND.......


I HATE fnb...

i gt mc.....what CNAT TAKE OFF.....

I just a tranee ONLY,ok....

NO PAY MONEY FOR ME ALSO.....

chinise new year just give me 2DAY OFF....

WAT THE FUCKER HOTEL THAT IS.......

SOMEMORE NEAR CHOW KEAT.....

I JUST WANNA TELL YOU,

Y YOUR HOTEL SALE ALWAYS SO LOW.....

BECAUSE URE NOT GOOD OWNER.....

AND ALL YOUR WORKER IS FUCKER.......

WASTE,TAKE THIS AND THAT GO BACK...

call trannee do everything......

YOU THINK WHO URE......

WHAT THE FUCK........

I HATE TRANING..........

I WONT GO YOUR HOTEL FOREVER EVER.....

SHIT

happy new yeAR////

saterday i go back my lovely home at batu patah after i finish my work...miss jia,yi all of u...muackzz.....miss da ge and da jie aslo........
reunion dinner
we waithing for reunion dinner wit all of u.........
our chef JENNY WOO....
commis SOO KIM
KAKAK
SOO NI
SOO KIAT
cutting BEKU

ALL THE FOOD IS HERE PART1

PART 2

XIAO ZHU....ROASTED PIG

安定

我想要安定，我不知道自己的安定是什么意思，就想安安静静的过每一天，看着每一个爱我，我爱的人好好的过，我应该会很幸福，应该会的。
最近我的要求好象太多，太过分了，所以上天让我什么都得不到一样，我的心好像都不可以安静了，不知道为什么会突然的心痛，是家人，是朋友吗？？好象自己快要失去全世界。。。就像现在说不出的感觉说不出的心痛。。。却还要装坚强，到底我在GENG什么啊，明明就不想那样却假装自己是那样想的，，明明就是喜欢却要假装自己是不喜欢的。。。不知道自己在过什么日子的日子，好象在浪费人生一样，什么东西也不会，讨厌这样的自己。。
我真的害怕失去，我祈祷不要让我在失去任何一个东西，会太过分吗？不知道是不是我的福｀份用完了呢？？
我真的不能在承受失去东西的痛苦，我会疯掉。。
让我在变坚强一些些好吗？？我不想当只会哭的女人

happy birthday hui san

happy birthday hui san..........
feel so tired,everyday wake up so early.....lucky tomorrow is sunday...offday...ya hooo...
i hate training,damn tired.....yesterday after finish work we help hui san celebrate her birthday.... ricky and me belanja hui san eat at
we eat at shusi zanmai at sunway de....qiute nice, something like shusi king,bt the food nicer than shui shi king and the food almost same price.


>me and richy....

me and the birthday gal....

help hui san count down he birthday at barcelona....on the way going....bt we jam inside the car part..hehe,i also dun know how come car part also will jam,too bored so just take photo...
tonight hui san really drunk...drink too much....bt she happy enough le....
happy birthday....birthday gal..
tired...going to slp soon...
hope hui san can find the true love,
become more slim and pretty...i hope me also.../haha

for ricky.....

十岁以前，就不说了，无非是淘气和不懂事。
　　　　十三、四岁的时候，开始对女孩有好感，但是那时候他离女孩远远的，并且以讨厌女孩 自居，生怕被同伴嘲笑。
　　　　十五岁的时候，听到大人们说某某男人好花，把女朋友甩了，女孩自杀了。他觉得这人 真狠毒，自己将来一定要做个痴情的男人，一定要一生只爱一个人。
　　　　十六岁的时候，他喜欢上了一个女孩，但是他不敢和她说。仍然和往常一样，脏兮兮的 在灰土飞扬的操场上踢球。只在女孩走出校门的时候，躲在二层的窗户上看她的背影， 他觉得她一定是个天使。
　　　　十七岁的时候，有个女孩喜欢上了他，但是他离她很远，他心里面只有自己那个女孩， 他觉得看别的女孩都是对她的不忠。
　　　　十八岁的时候，看了一个MTV，感动得想哭，他想，如果自己的女孩失去了双眼，他一定会像男主角会毫不犹豫的把自己的眼睛给她，让她能看到光明。
　　　　十九岁的时候，高考了。终于和自己暗恋的女孩分别，坐火车去学校的时候，感觉自己 离她越来越远，心像被掏空了一样。还在想自己一定不会忘记她，等到自己成功以后一 定要去找她。
　　　　二十岁的时候，听到有人讲黄色笑话，觉得这人真可耻。
　　　　二十一岁的时候，她的回信中告诉他，自己有了男朋友。偷偷的哭了一个晚上。
　　　　二十二岁的时候，他向一个女孩表白，女孩说“你是个好人，可是我还小。”他想，我 的确是个好人，他说“没关系，我可以等你。”心想，我不会像那些花心的人一样，三 年五年我也能等。
　　　　二十三岁的时候，说自己还小的女孩和一个帅哥恋爱了。他很纳闷，长大原来可以这样 快。
　　　　二十四岁的时候，他又向一个女孩表白，女孩说“你是个好人，可是我并不适合你。” 他纳闷很久，我是好人你怎么还不适合我呢？
　　　　二十五岁的时候，他又追求一个女孩，女孩接受了他。他开始很幸福的为未来拼搏，他想，一时的开心只是暂时的，只有努力拼搏，他和她才能有快乐的未来，但是，半年以后，女孩和他分手了。只是因为另外一个男孩会说让她开心的话。女孩说“你是个好人 ，是我对不起你。”他似乎明白了问题所在，他是个好人。
　　　　二十六岁的时候，他开始堕落，交网友。打扮得时尚而酷，而且渐渐的学习着讨好女孩 的话。不久，他有了个女朋友，虽然他对她也很好，可是，他心里知道，自己并不爱她 。
　　　　二十七岁的时候，他和女孩分手了。他对女孩说“你是个好女孩，是我对不起你。”
　　　　二十八岁的时候，他尝试了一夜情，发现别人能做的，自己也一样。
　　　　二十九岁的时候，他学会了讲黄色笑话，并且以看旁边的女孩子脸红为乐趣。
　　　　三十岁的时候，他忽然发现自己变得很有能力追求到女孩，但是却没有了爱的能力。于 是他在自己QQ上写下了如下的话
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其实每个男孩，本来都是想做一个感情专一的好男人的。
　　　　其实每个男孩，本来看女孩子都是看脸而不是胸部的。
其实每个男孩，本来都是不会讲黄色笑话的。
　　　　其实每个男孩，本来都是渴望爱一个人直到永远的。
　　　　只是，没有任何女孩爱这样的男孩，她们觉得这样的男孩太幼稚，太古板，没有情趣。
　　　　于是男孩开始改变，变成女孩喜欢的那种
嘴角挂着坏坏的笑
玩世不恭或者幽默
　　　 开始学会说甜言蜜语而不是心里想说的话
开始学会假装关心，学会给女孩送小饰物讨好她
学会如何追求，如何把握爱情。
或者看破红尘，游戏情场，成为女人恨恨的那种男人
　　　　他们可以很容易俘获女孩子的心
但是他们也会在黑的夜里叼着烟流泪

心里有爱的时候，没有女孩
有了女孩，却永远没有了爱的感觉

在听到女人抱怨世上没有一个好男人时候
他们不会再去努力做个好男人，只是微笑着擦肩而过
actualy i post this 1 before at my msn blog,bt today c u so sad,so...let u read this,is that true??hehe

teach u how to be a clever gal in love

~~如何做恋爱中的聪明女人~~
男人是一所很好的学校，能把女人调教得光彩夺目。我们的爱情总是千疮百孔，受一次伤又老一次。女人任时光雕彩得越发精致，到最后她已经很难再爱上一个人，如果谁让她爱上，那是福气。因为她懂得如何爱你，懂得风情万种又不失端庄。

　　我知道那是一种类似狐狸转世的修炼。除了上天赋予的美貌和智能外还有很多个人的特质。女人要先爱自己再修炼，不要怕男人不爱你，妖精没有年龄。那么，我们现在就来学着做一个聪明的八面玲珑的小妖精吧。

　　大多数女人得到的信息是男生一般比较喜欢温柔娴静的女人，事实上，对付男人要懂得分寸。其实这并不难，不要一味顺从，学会生气，学会吃醋，学会撒娇，学会野蛮。你越是难以掌握，他越是想靠近你征服你。即使再爱一个人，爱进骨子里，在对他施爱时也应该有张有弛。

　　这样才会有健康美满的爱情。

　　在爱情里，学着掌握主动权。怎样才可以让他更爱你呢？首先美丽依旧是不变的致命招数。女人要自己美丽自己，学会打扮，学会抓住男人的心。美丽，不是单纯的外表，而是要从心到外的改造过程。传说中孔雀翎是世间最致命的暗器，它出现时，就如同所有的鲜花在同时间开放，灿烂而眩目。对任何人来说，要想看住自己的爱人，就必须让自己像孔雀翎般灿烂，让他无瑕“他”顾。

　　当然，如果有的男人实在太过分，当你忍无可忍时，你也可以选择使用武力。何况在现今，野蛮也已经成为一种潮流。你要时刻敲打你的男友，让他对你产生敬畏之情，如果真的实在无法挽回，你也不妨真的用拳头解决一下你的怒气，这样也不是未尝不可的，但切记不要把他打得太严重哦。

　　有的女人视爱情如生命，他是她的全部和唯一，他的喜怒哀乐甚至一个喷嚏都能牵动她的心。两个人吵架，先低头的也是自己。正因为这样往往就会纵容他，让他更加骄傲和蛮横，以为你铁定不会离开他。太多的男人要比女人更富有创造力，他们往往不满足于拥有一次选择的机会，尤其是对自己死心塌地的女人他更不懂珍惜。因此，应该做个聪明的女人，减掉纵容，增加交际。

　　除了他，你可以试着交往别的异性朋友，一定要有几个男性朋友，没有非分之想，能在受到委屈时拿胸口当沙包给你锤的，你也能帮他出主意追女朋友，并可以深夜里把他从床上揪起来去很远的地方接你。当然，要在对应的环境里面扮演适宜的角色，分清主次。一来可以丰富自己的生活，二来可以借机多了解一下男人，三来他如果真的在乎你，他就会设身处地的去体会你孤守一人世界时的滋味了。

做个聪明的女人。如果一个男人开始怠慢你，请你离开他。不懂得疼惜你的男人不要为之不舍，更不必继续付出你的柔情和爱情。任何时候，不要为一个负心的男人伤心，女子更要懂得，伤心，最终伤的是自己的心。如果那个男人是无情的，你更是伤不到他的心，所以，收拾悲伤，好好生活。永远不要无休止的围着你喜欢的那个男人转，尽管你喜欢得他快要掏心掏肺的死掉了，也还是要学着给他空间，否则，你要小心缠得太紧勒死了他。

　　当一个男人对你说：分手吧。请不要哭泣和流泪，应该笑着说：等你说这话很久了。然后转身走掉。知道自己要什么，包括你爱的男人。认真的对待你的工作。工作也许不如爱情来的让你心跳，但至少能保证你有饭吃，有房子住，而不确定的爱情给不了这些，所以，认真努力的工作。

　　你可以去爱一个男人，但是不要把自己的全部都赔进去。没有男人值得你用生命去讨好。你若不爱自己，怎么能让别人爱你？疯狂的事情经历一次就好，比如翻越千山万水的去看望一个人。孤单的时候找好朋友聊天、逛街、吃饭。不要让孤寂淹没自己。如果发短信息给你喜欢的人，他不回。不要再发。万一不小心喝醉了酒，不要打电话给任何人，包括死党和他。

　　从现在开始，聪明一点，不要问他想不想你？爱不爱你？他要想你或者爱你自然会对你说，但是从你的嘴里说出来，他会很骄傲和不在乎你。平等公正的对待你和他的爱情，脚踩很多船最终会翻掉。还有，不要24小时都想念同一个人，可以分一点给家人和朋友。

　　如果决定离开一个人，行动要快一点，快刀斩乱麻；如果决定爱上一个人，时间拉长一点，看清楚是否适合你。有固定的消遣场所，比如固定的咖啡馆、书店。让那个地方的服务生认识你，这样，你会在孤单时有个温暖的去处。不要为了任何人任何事折磨自己。比如不吃饭、哭泣、自闭、抑郁，这些都是傻瓜才做的事。当然，偶尔傻一下有必要，人生不必时时聪明。

　　如果一个男人对你说他喜欢你，相信他。如果他说不再爱你，也相信他。任何时候，要告诉自己，一个不爱你的人离开，是幸运。如果哪个男人说了让你难堪的话，原谅他。一个被原谅的男人最后会后悔失去一个像你这么宽容的女朋友。爱那个爱你的人，如果只是你爱他，或者只是他爱你，趁早分开。女人不需要他人来假装疼爱，你也不需要假装疼爱某人。如果可以，和相爱的人牵手漫步。在找不到之前，那么就先学会自己欣赏风景。

　　在爱情里，要时刻学会做个睿智的女子，学会从容面对爱情也就学会了面对生活。积极面对生活，生活定会如你所愿，如同明早，太阳依旧会如时升起。幸福不是靠命运，是靠自己掌握的。那么，从现在起，我们是不是该学着做一个聪明的女人了呢？

unluck day

today i dun know what luck that i hv,lost my phone again...
today i was ordy feel sad,so many thing happend to me,so hurt,i feel wanna cry,i want to tell some 1 ,i really trying to tell, trying to control,bt fail,.....i really feel like wanna cry......i hate training

1st day training...

pwtc,all of you next time dun go.....
super lao ya....haha....but the chef at there is good,just the hotel abit lo kou,hehe.....lucky dun hv any hard work to give me to do,they all just let me cut some vegetable,clean table..hope tomorrow will be easy like this also..:-)

i love you JO......

JO...i miss you too la...
sorry la,is not i forget you,is chua told me u going back bp on the day,so i no choice... dun angry la...ok???miss miss++hugs...
tomorrow start my first day training......haizz....so fast...so scarie,i dun want go stupid training...cry..
i get back my cutie baby hamster..so happy...bt jackie is died cause or ryan..she always bully jackie,fight until jackie died,shawn is trying to save him,bt still.....anyway,was ordy pass what to do??/MAN MO A MI TO FO,OMG...so fat, ryan IS getting fat and fatter AFTER COME BACK FROM SHAWN HOUSE,shawn is giving all they nice food hight protin and vitamin to her...treat her better then me.....anyway,thx alot shawn,you really help me alot,help me care for my baby for 2week ,today still bring me go kl to find my traning place somemore...thx alot eeeeeeee......

before shawn come to fetch me,i company my housemate yang feng and jackie to prymid...

clubing

yeah.......everybody is coming back for own hometown..
before going to traning we planing go to clubing ...RELAX TIME..
AFTER BINCANG here and there,in the end we choose going to barcelona because MOS GOT alot black guy,and the muzik no so nice, just go bar la,whatever there hv alot of la la gal ...hehe...bt all is pretty gal,so just go there c pretty gal..say like that likes i'm lesbian la,NONONO,i hv to explan i'm not ok,just likeS to see leng lui ONLY,for sure leng zai also ..HEHE

celes,celine,me and jiun....other dun know go where ordy..hehe

haizzzz......1day more,i hv to start my training,shit la,i worry i cant do it...
why my training place at pwtc,near chao kiet some more....who can help me/????

happy day

yesterday i feel so down,sunden miss you so much...bt i really lost you
在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里 舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你 但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去

先走了 去了好远的地方
不能再陪你看日出 等不到天亮
所有回忆 抹去 却并不容易
生死由天决定 不要太伤心
在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里 舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你 但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去

在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里 舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你 但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去
我 永远 爱你。
i like this song,is wrote form 1 gal die on cancer...she worte this song for her bf before her die....so touch...
today chua come pj find me,miss him alot,long time no see him,we having our dinner together at CJ'S hui san also..my ex housemate...happy....


hui san help us to take this picture...actualy u hv to take early before eating,because of me,too hungry cant tahan ordy..so....
paise la

good bye 2008

january 2008
i starting my new life at singpore with ryan (my dad best friend son)lucky hv him campany if not i dun know i can do it or nt,no friends at there,everyday feel so loney,lucky my cousin always company me..
feb
i feel hard to study at sg,no life..everyone are so kai shu,i dun like the life,starting to hate myself my dad,why want me to go over there,start to find new life to myself,serching new college at malaysia..
mar
everyday crying at home,tian sheng always come to company me,give me alot of support...everyday hv to wake up early take train and bus to sch,make me feel really tire,at sg my friends just a pasenger of my life.....study at there for 3 month,first time fainted at smrt,the first person that i think for calling is my ex..my first love ,i trying to call jia,bt she still at sch,what can i do??after 3 years this is my first time meet him again,my ex who is the one love and care me alot and alot person,bt i hurt him......sorry...i cant give u anyhting cz we still young ,bt when you telling me,this three year you never forget me,and still love me i feel touched,really bt i feel sad also when u telling me you want to leave me cause now i'm nt belong you,i have tian sheng...if we still contat i will hurt you again....bt i think this time is you hurt me..
april
my dad say i choose wat i want,my future is decide by myself,i choose going to taylor college study culinary art,i no really sure is that suit for me or nt i scare i do the wrong decide,cz this is my first time can do anything what i want...thanks my dad,first day going to college is happy..........i know hui san ,jiaying, jay they all become my best friends
may
my best friend pass away....my friends ask me why i no crying?how i can be like that??she is my best friend....ya,what can i do?when all of u cal me,telling me she pass away,scare i get hurt??i'm the last person all of u inform,aND after that tell me she likes me??love me>want me together wit her/?i crying who see that??my heart is crying,why is me??that is not my first time to get hurt like this,ning xing left me shun er you also,are you still remember wat is your promise?why everybody like do this for me ,god what are u doing there,why is me?this time i hv to learn how to control myself,i hv learn be strong be brave...
jUn
i break wit tian sheng,almost two year we together,is ntg for me,trust me.......we break without crying,now i'm the person will not get hurt so easy like before,sze thien is szethien,she can control everything by herself....i know EEE,i like him,bt i dun know wat he think,when he tell me he cant together wit me,cause he dun want get hurt again,i dun know wat i can say,this is my first time like someone first,after this i force myself,i want close wit his friends,WHATEVER WANT ME DO ANYTHING,I DO...
JUL
is my birthday,first time go clubing wit ning jie.....,but this birthday i feel loney.........whatever hv friends at here...bt...i hate this month
AUG
first time go clubing wit hui san and wendy,they all look so hot man........i dun think i can do that too....first time drunk also...
sep
busy doing visa ,going to usa and canada soon....
oct
traving at canada and usa,first time go to disney land hv fun there,miss my brother and sista love all of you...muakczz
nov
busy doing project and studyng,because 1 month no going to college,have alot of stuff hv to do ,bt when i not at college that time,some of my friends help me alot,let me know who is my real friends,thanks guys
dec
fever......homework,exam....make so tired,but i still enjoy it i love my life now....edwin ryan jackie all of u bring alot of fun for me,ryan and jackie become my housemate also,i miss you shun er ning xing,i really miss you,what i think for yesterday all about you..both of you.....CAN GIVE ME MORE TIME TO TALK WIT YOUR?/I JUST WANT BOTH OF YOU KNOW,I REALLY MISS YOU..............MY BEST FRIENDS


GOODBYE 2008.......................
this year i learn alot,because of you i learn how to care and love someone..is you teach me ,i learn how to not get hurt and crying so easy.i learn love my family and my friends..
afer ning xin i think my life just will be like that,everyday will be alone,is you shu er chua bacuase know all of you,let me know i'm nt alone,i sill hv all of you, when i trying to walk out from ning xin going to future,is you left me alone again no inform....
chua my dear friend ,i always be wit you,whatever you think you want just do it.....ok???i know now u feel hard,and dun know how to tell is ok,ure the good guy i never see before...i like you....thx alot....u always company me when i sad...jo also...thanks for both of you my dear friends
HAPPY NEW YEar
i hope both u can continue sayang me like before..hehe.