good bye 2008

january 2008
i starting my new life at singpore with ryan (my dad best friend son)lucky hv him campany if not i dun know i can do it or nt,no friends at there,everyday feel so loney,lucky my cousin always company me..
feb
i feel hard to study at sg,no life..everyone are so kai shu,i dun like the life,starting to hate myself my dad,why want me to go over there,start to find new life to myself,serching new college at malaysia..
mar
everyday crying at home,tian sheng always come to company me,give me alot of support...everyday hv to wake up early take train and bus to sch,make me feel really tire,at sg my friends just a pasenger of my life.....study at there for 3 month,first time fainted at smrt,the first person that i think for calling is my ex..my first love ,i trying to call jia,bt she still at sch,what can i do??after 3 years this is my first time meet him again,my ex who is the one love and care me alot and alot person,bt i hurt him......sorry...i cant give u anyhting cz we still young ,bt when you telling me,this three year you never forget me,and still love me i feel touched,really bt i feel sad also when u telling me you want to leave me cause now i'm nt belong you,i have tian sheng...if we still contat i will hurt you again....bt i think this time is you hurt me..
april
my dad say i choose wat i want,my future is decide by myself,i choose going to taylor college study culinary art,i no really sure is that suit for me or nt i scare i do the wrong decide,cz this is my first time can do anything what i want...thanks my dad,first day going to college is happy..........i know hui san ,jiaying, jay they all become my best friends
may
my best friend pass away....my friends ask me why i no crying?how i can be like that??she is my best friend....ya,what can i do?when all of u cal me,telling me she pass away,scare i get hurt??i'm the last person all of u inform,aND after that tell me she likes me??love me>want me together wit her/?i crying who see that??my heart is crying,why is me??that is not my first time to get hurt like this,ning xing left me shun er you also,are you still remember wat is your promise?why everybody like do this for me ,god what are u doing there,why is me?this time i hv to learn how to control myself,i hv learn be strong be brave...
jUn
i break wit tian sheng,almost two year we together,is ntg for me,trust me.......we break without crying,now i'm the person will not get hurt so easy like before,sze thien is szethien,she can control everything by herself....i know EEE,i like him,bt i dun know wat he think,when he tell me he cant together wit me,cause he dun want get hurt again,i dun know wat i can say,this is my first time like someone first,after this i force myself,i want close wit his friends,WHATEVER WANT ME DO ANYTHING,I DO...
JUL
is my birthday,first time go clubing wit ning jie.....,but this birthday i feel loney.........whatever hv friends at here...bt...i hate this month
AUG
first time go clubing wit hui san and wendy,they all look so hot man........i dun think i can do that too....first time drunk also...
sep
busy doing visa ,going to usa and canada soon....
oct
traving at canada and usa,first time go to disney land hv fun there,miss my brother and sista love all of you...muakczz
nov
busy doing project and studyng,because 1 month no going to college,have alot of stuff hv to do ,bt when i not at college that time,some of my friends help me alot,let me know who is my real friends,thanks guys
dec
fever......homework,exam....make so tired,but i still enjoy it i love my life now....edwin ryan jackie all of u bring alot of fun for me,ryan and jackie become my housemate also,i miss you shun er ning xing,i really miss you,what i think for yesterday all about you..both of you.....CAN GIVE ME MORE TIME TO TALK WIT YOUR?/I JUST WANT BOTH OF YOU KNOW,I REALLY MISS YOU..............MY BEST FRIENDS


GOODBYE 2008.......................
this year i learn alot,because of you i learn how to care and love someone..is you teach me ,i learn how to not get hurt and crying so easy.i learn love my family and my friends..
afer ning xin i think my life just will be like that,everyday will be alone,is you shu er chua bacuase know all of you,let me know i'm nt alone,i sill hv all of you, when i trying to walk out from ning xin going to future,is you left me alone again no inform....
chua my dear friend ,i always be wit you,whatever you think you want just do it.....ok???i know now u feel hard,and dun know how to tell is ok,ure the good guy i never see before...i like you....thx alot....u always company me when i sad...jo also...thanks for both of you my dear friends
HAPPY NEW YEar
i hope both u can continue sayang me like before..hehe.